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Yeah, I admit I failed again. I knew it! Much as I would want to have an entry on this blog diligently as I have promised myself before, I didn't have the luxury of time to do it. This is what I hate on promises and or rules especially when I am setting it for myself, I usually break them! So I guess my thoughts were right. I should not set any rules for myself coz I bet I would just break them! haha.
So I missed 6 days. Now I'm back. So much things happened in almost a week of not having an entry on this blog. I would just write down the highlights of those 6 days that I missed.
We had our trip and it was quite a busy days. But it was fun. The new crew are getting used to the system and as I see it they are in the pace and are doing so well. Tougher days are yet to come and for sure by then they would be more better.
In those 6 days I remind myself to do not cross the border or else I might get myself trap to a situation I wouldn't wish to happen to anyone especially to myself. ( this is so hard to explain, but out of decency I prefer not to elaborate. Let's just say that I am in the middle of my own battle and it just so happened that my opponent is my self! )
My friend Rhia is in Imperia and I am so jealous. I wish to be back in there. :(
I had fun with my drinking session with Bims. She's just sooo cool and I am starting to love her. She is funny and is so considerate as a cabin mate. :)
1st of July was my dear brother's birthday and homesickness hits me. But I was glad knowing that He is enjoying his birthday. I just love and miss him so much. It's been over 8 months that I didn't see him. We've had the chance to come over to the boat where he works in November of last year but it wasn't enough. We didn't have much time to do the usual bonding and that's one of my wish right now. To have a bonding session with my brotha. I miss the fights and I miss his kakulitan. :)
I finally had the courage to confess to my Mother one of the many boo-boos I have made. Thank God for calming her down and I was spared from her obsolete reactions. After all, damage has been done, all We have to do now is to figure out the next move we have to make.
I chose to listen to her advise not to pursue the case coz as she said it would just drag me in to a pit of weariness if I'd do so. And i think she's right. I don't think I am ready for a fuss like that. Really not me. So better leave it to karma. If I couldn't defend my self and get even with those opportunist people for sure that Someone Greater up there would do it for me. enough with emotional torture! I'm handling it over to you Lord.
This week reminds me to listen to the advises of people who really care about me. I mean not just listen, but give high consideration before submitting myself to a decision. I was caught in this kind of trouble because I was hard headed and too self willed. So I have to pay for my actions. As what my Mother says, Move on, and charge it to experience.
To sum up. It is not always easy to live in this world. Every actions I make has a corresponding return on me, so for whatever actions I have to make in this present especially in the future I have to think before I do it. I have to bear in mind to be accountable for my actions and be a lot more careful or else It would fall back in to me. :)
Yeah, I admit I failed again. I knew it! Much as I would want to have an entry on this blog diligently as I have promised myself before, I didn't have the luxury of time to do it. This is what I hate on promises and or rules especially when I am setting it for myself, I usually break them! So I guess my thoughts were right. I should not set any rules for myself coz I bet I would just break them! haha.
So I missed 6 days. Now I'm back. So much things happened in almost a week of not having an entry on this blog. I would just write down the highlights of those 6 days that I missed.
We had our trip and it was quite a busy days. But it was fun. The new crew are getting used to the system and as I see it they are in the pace and are doing so well. Tougher days are yet to come and for sure by then they would be more better.
In those 6 days I remind myself to do not cross the border or else I might get myself trap to a situation I wouldn't wish to happen to anyone especially to myself. ( this is so hard to explain, but out of decency I prefer not to elaborate. Let's just say that I am in the middle of my own battle and it just so happened that my opponent is my self! )
My friend Rhia is in Imperia and I am so jealous. I wish to be back in there. :(
I had fun with my drinking session with Bims. She's just sooo cool and I am starting to love her. She is funny and is so considerate as a cabin mate. :)
1st of July was my dear brother's birthday and homesickness hits me. But I was glad knowing that He is enjoying his birthday. I just love and miss him so much. It's been over 8 months that I didn't see him. We've had the chance to come over to the boat where he works in November of last year but it wasn't enough. We didn't have much time to do the usual bonding and that's one of my wish right now. To have a bonding session with my brotha. I miss the fights and I miss his kakulitan. :)
I finally had the courage to confess to my Mother one of the many boo-boos I have made. Thank God for calming her down and I was spared from her obsolete reactions. After all, damage has been done, all We have to do now is to figure out the next move we have to make.
I chose to listen to her advise not to pursue the case coz as she said it would just drag me in to a pit of weariness if I'd do so. And i think she's right. I don't think I am ready for a fuss like that. Really not me. So better leave it to karma. If I couldn't defend my self and get even with those opportunist people for sure that Someone Greater up there would do it for me. enough with emotional torture! I'm handling it over to you Lord.
This week reminds me to listen to the advises of people who really care about me. I mean not just listen, but give high consideration before submitting myself to a decision. I was caught in this kind of trouble because I was hard headed and too self willed. So I have to pay for my actions. As what my Mother says, Move on, and charge it to experience.
To sum up. It is not always easy to live in this world. Every actions I make has a corresponding return on me, so for whatever actions I have to make in this present especially in the future I have to think before I do it. I have to bear in mind to be accountable for my actions and be a lot more careful or else It would fall back in to me. :)
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